Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I'll disguise this whining with melody, and I hope that it leaves you intrigued

Routine. If I think about it, I suppose I've always had one. My days have always been guided by the hours I worked, the time I spent in class, and the countless minutes spent in front of a TV or Computer Monitor. Nowadays, my routine revolves completely around another human being (well, 2 human beings really). Most days of the week begin at 5am. I spend minimal time preparing myself for the day, and the majority of the hour in the morning attending to Mikey (packing his diaper bag & feeding him). If I have time, I hardboil 3 eggs and pack a lunch for myself for the day. Then I run out the door as close to 6am as humanly possible in order to get work by 7am (oh, of course every morning I have to stop at Quiktrip to get 1 liter of my beloved Diet Dew). Work. Work Work Work. A blessing and a curse. I get to do attend to my needs for a whole 8 hours. I can go to the bathroom without worrying if the baby might need something. I can feed myself without worrying about if everyone else in my home is fed. So, yes, there is freedom in work, but for the most part I ache to be taking care of my child and "homemaking."

Fast forward to 3:30 (or sometimes slow forward, the afternoons sure can drag) and it is another mad dash! I pick up Mikey from the sitters, and head home, usually arriving about 4:30. Then it is: Feed The Baby, Put the Baby down for a nap, wash baby bottles, cook dinner, feed husband, get baby up, feed baby, bathe baby, put baby down for the night, collapse.

Ok, I don't always collapse. Sometimes I make it into the computer room and fiddle around with the old blog :) Then it is off to bed to rinse and repeat!

What I'm looking for is time. Some time to insert a few activities into my routine. I'd like to take a 2 mile walk each evening with the baby. I'd also like to find more time to stimulate the mind of my child. After looking at my schedule, it seems like the best way to do this is going to be to have all our meals prepared at the beginning of the week so I don't have to do any actual cooking during the week. Mr. Right offerred to be on bottle washing duty, but I haven't really relinquished the task yet which is my fault.

Or, maybe I can use that machine from the James Bond Movie that allowed the inventor to skip sleep. Think of all that I could accomplish if I didn't have to catch any Z's! If that machine hasn't really been invented yet, I could always try to convince a vampire to turn me... they don't need sleep, either. Stupid REM. In the mean time, I'm relying on Mountain Dew to supplement my sleep. 1 Liter a day keeps the keyboard imprints off my forehead.

I can appreciate that the dogs are trying to help take some chores off my hands. Why, just last night Guinness and Sammy cleaned out the litter box for me since we forgot to put the baby gate up that blocked them from the guest bathroom. Thanks, guys, I can always count on you to contribute to the family!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

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Sunday, April 26, 2009


I was quite the god fearing 5 year old. I had started attending church with my neighbors (the Olsens) at my request since my family did not attend church. When I told my mother that she was going to hell for not going to church, she decided to take matters into her own hands.

She began taking me along with my brothers and sister to a Unitarian Church every Sunday. In bible study we learned about all the religions of the world in addition to stories from the bible. There were Pagans and Wiccans that also attended the church, and overall I was fairly happy in this environment. My mother eventually fully embraced Wicca and out of curiosity I started reading more about it. I tried the whole "Witch" thing on for size and out of lack of resources or pure laziness, it never went anywhere.

From that point on, I've considered myself to be agnostic. I just didn't really care to take the time or make the investment into embracing my spirituality. As I became more politically minded and opinionated, I started to feel some conflict. I am extremely pro-life, and not for biblical reasons, but for constitutional reasons. The Declaration of Independence declared "We hold these Truths to be self-evident, that all Men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." There. Right there. A baby doesn't look like a full grown adult, or a teenager, and similarly, a human life in its first days and weeks in the womb may not look like a full grown adult either, but the end result is still the same. I believe that from the moment of conception that the unborn human has the right to life.

So I focus on what the rights are, but there is more than one part of that sentence. I was merely glossing over that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights.

Lately I've felt a tugging on my heart. I'm not sure if it is motherhood that is causing this, or lack of sleep. I once joked with a friend that if God ever made it plainly clear that he was "real" I would happily follow him wherever he led. Is this strange tugging actually him trying to reach out to me? And if it is, how do I know who has it right? Is it god, or Zeus... one of the pagan gods... or Allah? Do the Mormon's have it right, or the Catholics? My husband was baptized in the Methodist Church... is that the right way to go?


Saturday, April 25, 2009

Taking the A-Line...

The only thing worse than window shopping is internet window shopping...

I want this haircut & color.

I want blogger to put the pictures where I tell it to. Damn you, blogger.

I think my feet really need these. Really really.

And just in case it ever gets cold enough, I have always wanted a Pea Coat:

or this one:

And of course I'll need to protect my eyes from the sun:

Can't lose track of the time:

Ok, that is enough internet window shopping for one night :)

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Because Volunteering is Good For the Human Spirit...

One is not born into the world to do everything but to do something.
-Henry David Thoreau, poet, writer, philosopher

Last week, my company announced an across the board salary freeze for an unspecified amount of time. During the small team meeting we had where my manager broke the news, the feeling in the room was almost one of humor and relief. We all agreed that a salary freeze was better than a salary reduction (like many of my friends have experienced recently). We talked about possible layoffs in the future. A co-worker of mine asked if they would be accepting volunteers for layoffs. My manager indicated that yes, they would certainly entertain that.

On Friday, during our team meeting (if you can, read between the lines) my manager talked about how our whole portfolio is shrinking, and how every account manager has FAR fewer accounts than we did a year ago. He happened to have the list of the amount of accounts and size of our portfolio in dollars on hand. Wouldn't you know it, I have the smallest number of accounts and the smallest portfolio in millions.

Husband and I have been mulling over this possibility for weeks... months really. Could we make it without my income? On Thursday night, I finally proved it to him by putting it all in a spreadsheet. With my lump severance pay, we would be able to pay off ALL the credit card debt. Of course we would have to contend with my student loan payment still, but with the new IBR program the payment on my student loans will be greatly reduced! But, I figured that all said and done after all our bills are paid, we will have $1,000.00 per month for living expenses such as groceries, toiletries and other items that are needed as they come up (clothes for the baby, for example). Oh, and in case you are wondering, we will also be able to keep our house - we wouldn't have to walk away or anything like that.

With that in mind, we took the plunge! Well, I took the plunge. And actually, I haven't plunged anywhere just yet. I merely notified my boss that I was preemptively raising my hand. I volunteered to be first in line to get laid off.

I thought I might pee my pants as I typed out the words, and almost didn't hit send a 1000 times. But, then I thought about how I'm paying another woman to spend all day with my son. I thought about how sad it makes me that he loves her so much after spending the day with her (and yes, I realize this is infinitely better than him crying and hating every minute he spends with her). I panic thinking that he might crawl, or walk, or utter his very first word to her. I realized that although it didn't start out as my dream, being a stay at home mom has turned into a dream for me. I want to watch my sweet baby evolve into an adorable toddler, a lovable child. I want to teach him about the alphabet, and the consitution, and music and math. I want those crazy weirdo homeschooled children to be MY children!

So, anyway - this all means precisely nothing. If my company isn't doing any more layoffs, then me volunteering for a non-existant reality is not getting me anywhere. On the other hand, it might be months and months before the company does downsize again. I've heard of crazier things though. A friends Uncle offered to voluntarily be laid off, and he had his package within 1/2 an hour. Perhaps my boss will take my offer to HR and I might find myself a stay at home mom as early as next week! Either way, I will keep you informed...


On to my exciting weekend! Rather, my not exciting weekend! I haven't had such a fantastic weekend in months! Husband and I poked around the house, didn't see anyone or do anything all day Saturday. Then, on Sunday, we ran ALL OVER THE UNIVERSE running errands and buying ludicrous quanties of baby stuff. Please see pictures as evidence:

And my sweet chub-a-lub is 16 weeks old!

Oh my! I can't believe it. I'm almost done counting weeks, lol (it is getting difficult to figure out how many weeks old he is, ha ha). We celebrated by eating apple sauce in our brand new high chair.

And then passing out. *sigh* he is adorable.

And, as promised, her is my little sister Mariel and her sweet baby girl, Alex:

Have a wonderful week everyone!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

The Arizona Tea Party of 2009...

April 15th, 2009 is one of those days that will not soon be forgotten. I wish I could have been there - stupid work. Remind me to hurry up and be a stay at home mom :)

Here is some footage from the AZ Tea Party:

I sincerely hope that this isn't the end of the movement. Our country is headed in a terrible direction. So many are ready and eager to give up their freedom, their liberty, in the name of a hand out! The worst part? The goverment is trying to bribe us with OUR OWN FRICKIN' MONEY! *sigh*

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Real Solutions...

I saw Kathy Ireland on the Huckabee show a few nights ago. I'm SO hooked! I had no idea how completely awesome this woman is. A woman of faith, dedicated to her family and committed to her marriage. She singlehandedly gave THE BEST argument against abortion that I have ever heard. A frickin' former super model nailed it. I just went on a search for a youtube clip from the show, but I cant find one. If I do, I will post it here.

Anyway, Ms. Ireland was on Huckabee promoting her new book Real Solutions for Busy Moms

I would also like to get my hands on Liberty and Tyranny by Mark Levin

A reviewer at Amazon had this to say about the book: "Mark R. Levin logically lays out what has made the United States of America different from all other nations in the history of humanity. He re-introduces us to the founders and framers, and those people who inspired them long ago. At its most basic elements, our country was founded on the ideals of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness...and that we have these rights conferred on us, not by man or government, but by Natural Law, which originates with the Creator. Mr. Levin puts us back in touch with our founding doctrines, which are the at the very heart of what conservatism is and has always been. "

Finally, my little sister gave birth to her sweet little girl on Easter Morning! Everyone is healthy and content. I will make sure to post pictures soon!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Turning Dreams into Reality...

Mr. Right and I had an interesting conversation yesterday. A conversation that we have kinda sorta had every once in awhile over the last few years.

Out of the blue, Husband will ask "Why don't you make websites for a living?"

Way back when (around 1995, at the ripe old age of 12) I made my very first website. I signed up on Angelfire (hey - it was free) and researched the bare bones of HTML. I had no purpose... I just LOVED the internet. My father had purchased our second computer (a Hewlett Packard Pavillion) and the whole house was swept up in madness. I, forever designing and redesigning sweet little websites at geocities and tripod, and reading source code of everyone elses websites to try and understand how they made theirs look so good. Its really silly, but my favorite website was called, and it seemed like the coolest place every for a tween to be. As it turns out, it was a website sponsored by Tampax, lol. Go figure.

Anyway, in one way or another, I've had a website for a very long time. While Josh and I were still dating, but not yet married, I PURCHASED my very first domain and hosting package through siteflip. I used it for hosting pictures and music and also began exploring all the various blogging programs (wordpress, typepad) as well as Content Management Systems (CMS) like PHPNuke, Joomla, etc. After awhile I decided to move in a new direction and registered I wanted to maintain a website or blog about me, my family, and politics. Some where along the line life got the best of me, and I opted to just use a free service (Blogger) and forgot all about

I forgot about it, that is, until Mr. Right brought it up. "Why don't you design websites for a living?"

I had no answer for him. Why don't I? Why didn't I? Why did I waste 4 years of my life getting a degree that was not pertinent to my passions in life. Why did I then pursue a Masters Degree? All I have now (career wise) is a pretty typical office job with no chance of promotion since not only is my company not really hiring, but trimming back.

I've always been a digi-junkie. I love digital photography, making websites, blogging and reading others blogs. So, Husband's question really hit home with me. Why not? I asked what he thought I might need to do in order to get the ball rolling? He suggested UAT (University of Advanced Technology) and a couple of people I could talk to that work in the field. So, as it turns out, UAT offers a four year program (a bachelors degree) in Web and Social Media Technology. Duh. Where the heck was this place in 2001?

Anyway - the wheels in my brain have started turning. I don't know if I have the heart to go back to school. Yet, at the same time, I have a feeling that I would love every minute of the subject matter at hand. I was stressed out trying to balance work and school and my husband before - and how on earth will I be able to balance all of that PLUS my sweet baby? Part of me wishes I could just read up on everything, learn it all on my own and go into business for myself that way. Do I really need a degree to have a career in web design and development?

I'm also worried that the field might already be too saturated with these folks. Is the pool really deep enough for another web design fish?

Husband told me to request information, go speak with advisors, and once I had the information then we could make a decision together.

What do you all think?

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Dig me up from what is covering the better part of me...

So far, so good. This week has been awesome! I've loved spending every morning, day and night with my sweet pea, and knocking stuff off the "to do" list has helped rid me of some lingering anxiety. All in all, so far, no regrets about using vacation time to get my $hit in order. I've gotten a bit behind schedule, so tomorrow is going to be a super busy day! I'm going to try and finish ALL the cleaning and the garage. My ambitions completely rest on how happy Mikey is to frolick about in his Baby Bjorn while I dust and vacuum.

You all know how I've been bitching incessantly about "whaa... no couches... poor me... I hate my living room... whaa." Well, anyway, I finally put the wheels in motion to get my Grandmother's couches. They have been in storage with my little brother's ex-wife (just collecting dust). We wanted leather, but honestly, since Pledge invented the greatest thing ever, I'm totally down for cloth couches. Plus, my dearest June June had fantastic taste, so the couches are pretty cool. Definitely not "old lady" couches. Anyway, I've mostly talked my little brother into transporting them from Storage to my place - hopefully next weekend! Remind me to get on top of the whole rug and wall decorations thing.

Tonight we are trying some new stuff for the baby. I bought rice cereal w/ banana something or another flavory stuff. I also purchased some new spoons at the recommendation of Ariana @ Becoming Mom.

Mikey will be 4 months old on April 20th - at which point I'm allowed to begin stuffing him full of all sorts of delicious "Step 2" Foods. Of course, I can only stuff them in him 1 at a time, each week, so I can make sure he doesn't have any crazy food allergies. I've been going back and forth on what food to start with. I was thinking of peas, or maybe green beans... but boo! The orange foods seem much more exciting... so maybe Carrots or Sweet Potatoes? I've been told by friends not to introduce him to fruit first, because then he won't want the not as sweet veggies. I guess that should tell me that I ought to start him on the not so sweet veggies, too. Gerber "Step 2" tubs of baby food are on sale right now for 87 cents per 2 tub pack. Is that even a good deal? I might need to run back into Target tomorrow and stock up on the food he can eat in 2 short weeks! Hooray for milestones!

Monday, April 6, 2009

You're Awful, I love you!

My "to do" list, updated:

Oil Change
Purchase Zune Compatible Deck & Have it installed in the Jeep
Get my last name changed on our Bank Account - Tuesday
Car Wash - Tuesday
Scrubbing, Dusting, Vacuuming the WHOLE house - Tuesday
Finishing Mikey's Room - Tuesday
Organizing the Laundry Closet - Tuesday
Organizing the Linen Closet
Organizing the Garage
Shredding a Mount Everest sized pile of old bills and paperwork
Grooming and bathing the doggies

So, the list got a little bit longer, but I did get some things done today :) Poor Mikey - by the end of the day he was tuckered out!

And because my brain isn't fully functioning - here are some loves and hates:

Mikey's happy smiling babbling baby self
Watching Mr. Right with the baby
Listening to Astrud Gilberto while sipping on an ice cold Pacifico
Giada on the Food Network
Aqua Teen Hunger Force
Photographing my precious Mikey
Taking Mikey on a stroll around the block

My Bare Walls
My Couchless Living Room
The entitlement attitude plaguing the United States at this moment

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Dying and trying just to find some sort of piece of mind...

Guess what time it is?! Spring cleaning time!!! Uh, who would even be excited by that? Me! Because I have the whole next week off, and a mile long list of projects that have been waiting and waiting and waiting to be accomplished. In case you are interested, my overly ambitious "to do" list includes the following:

Oil Change
Car Wash
Scrubbing, Dusting, Vacuuming the WHOLE house
Finishing Mikey's Room
Organizing the Laundry Closet
Organizing the Linen Closet
Organizing the Garage
Shredding a Mount Everest sized pile of old bills and paperwork
Grooming and bathing the doggies

I also want to start the process of literally running my ass off. I've been trying to unearth some magical free hour between Mikey's naps and feeding and work and chores, and I've realized that I don't have to do any such thing! No no, my friends, they have invented the solution to all my problems. Meet my new best friend, the jogging stroller.

Now, I just have to save up the $$ to buy this :)

Alright - time to clean. Maybe I'll take some before and after pictures to do some further testing on my camera!

I will leave you with my #1 most favorite song at the moment:

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Mr. Right...

Even though I'm pretty sure he doesn't read my blog anymore, I had to dedicate a post to the awesomeness that is my husband.

I came home today to a clean kitchen, all the baby bottles washed, and a request for pizza for dinner!

All of that left me time to go on a stroll with the baby and take some pictures around the house.

Thanks baby! <3