Most of the time, I like to keep this blog light and fluffy - a place where my children can come back and look at archived memories of their childhood. But, until I am gone, this is also a place where I enjoy coming back to remember, and sometimes I want to remember the not so awesome stuff, too.
J and I found out I was pregnant at the end of April. About a week later, I had a miscarriage. I would be a liar if I didn't say I was bummed. Because I am. We were already dreaming of baby names and getting excited for a Christmas with 3 children this year instead of 2. It was early, but we were excited. I ended up going to the OB last Friday morning for lab work and an ultrasound, and finally got the lab results back today confirming that I am "not pregnant" with an HCG level of 2. Since this isn't my first miscarriage, I'm finding myself grateful that this loss happened early on, and that we are able to try again right away. When it does happen, I'm looking forward to documenting that journey right here, too.
Monday, May 6, 2013
Sometimes it is easy to forget to take time out "for me" between all the crap I find myself doing for my house full of guys. Between the cooking, baking, cleaning, laundry, chauffeuring and oh yeah, 40+ hours of work I do a week, it can be easy to just curl up on the couch while J is napping and M is watching cartoons and take a nap for myself. But, lately I've been purposefully trying to spend some time doing the things I enjoy most - listening to music, reading a good book, and drinking caffeine (hot coffee in the morning, and iced coffee in the afternoon). It really helps me to feel human again!
I'm glad I brought the camera on this adventure, because I can't see us attending this annual event Ever. Again. Ever. It was a complete waste of money, and in the future I'll just opt for the zoo rather than a convention center full of dinosaur robots and ridiculous rides.
While we have several dogwood trees on our property, the two largest trees are right off our deck in the backyard. After they started to bloom, we realized that many of the branches were dead, so J set off to work on sawing off the dead. I'm hoping for more blooms next spring!
I really need to start blogging more frequently so I'm not playing catchup with these picture posts! I took these weeks ago right after the azalea bushes went nuts - and by now a lot of the blooms have fallen off. Our yard is rather pretty in the spring time!